내 여자친구를 부탁해 (Say No)

this is the cute -est, sweetest, beast's lyrics ever. i know and sing this song for a long time, but just realize the meaning of it. and it melts me~~~ kyaaa... >< you should read this, be melt, and dont blame me for that.

 

Today my friend asked me if he could date you
Since I had broken up with you, he said he’d cherish you in my place

“THAT THAT THAT THAT THAT’S OKAY
GET GET GET GET AWAY
It’s okay, it’s not like we have anything to do with each other anymore
Stop saying sorry, my heart doesn’t hurt
Please be a good boyfriend to her in place of me”

I can’t get myself to say that I still can’t sleep at night because of her
With a forced smile I encouraged him and sent him away OH GIRL

Oh can’t you see? I’m still lovin’ you
My heart still can’t seem to let you go

Say no! no! no! no! no! Say no! no! no! no! no!
Tell him no, tell him your heart is still waiting for me SAY NO!

“She can’t drink a lot and she doesn’t like smoke
She hates being alone so always be with her”

Always celebrate her birthday and anniversaries”
I don’t know why I’m telling him this

I know I’m going to turn around and regret this but I still acted cool
I know I’m going to be upset behind my friend’s back and beg him not to

Oh can’t you see? I’m still lovin’ you
My heart still can’t seem to let you go

Say no! no! no! no! no! Say no! no! no! no! no!
Tell him no, tell him your heart is still waiting for me SAY NO!

(Say) no no no (Say) you can’t
(Say) you will wait for me
(Say) no no no (Say) you can’t
(Say) you will wait for me

I can’t get myself to say that I still can’t sleep at night because of her
With a forced smile I encouraged him and sent him away OH GIRL

Oh can’t you see? I’m still lovin’ you
My heart still can’t seem to let you go

Say no! no! no! no! no! Say no! no! no! no! no!
Tell him no, tell him your heart is still waiting for me SAY NO!

credits:aoiare

my favourite part is "술은 많이 못해 담배 연기는 싫어해, 혼자 있는 거 싫어하니까 언제나 함께" which is my baby boy, DOOJOON's part. “She can’t drink a lot and she doesn’t like smoke. She hates being alone so always be with her”. how can that man be this cute~~ #diealilbitwhenhesingthis

picture from this

have you ever

falling in love with six persons at the same time?


 I HAVE. 

these 6 boys, they made me fallen. ><

내겐 너무 소중해

again and again

Yong Junhyung.

yes, it's always about him...

that boy~~~

i just re-read these translation of beast's song.. yes, re-read.. i've been reading these a lot.. a lot.. that now, i think i should put these on this blog..

yes, you guys, should read this, and be melted.. and dont blame me for that... :p

" I was the silent one who said that I was never going to have a one-sided love in my life. That I was going to meet someone who loves me, But you are the girl that who broke all of that, how sad is this. I leave a message on your phone using the emoticons that I thought were so corny , You are the first girl who changed me this much "
(Beast-You)

"I’m the writer who lost his purpose .The end of this novel, how am I supposed to write it (My own Fiction).

 I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I keep writing these 3 words. 

Setting the warn out pen on the old paper stained in tears. This story can’t be happy or sad"
(Beast-Fiction)

"Well this doesn’t mean that I miss you, no it doesn’t mean that.

It just means that the time we had together was a bit sharp. 

When it’s the type of day that you really liked, 

I keep opening the raw memories of you, 

Making the excuse that it’s all memories..... " 

(Beast-On Rainy Days)

those lyrics are written and sang by:

tinki-winki, dipsy, lala, pooooo~~ (part 2)

okay, so i've done writing 3 things, and what else??

4. Beautiful Show Indonesia (March 17th, 2012)
kyaaaaa.....>< this thing, is the thing that i never expect to be happen to me..

well, the ticket selling starts on february 14th (if im not mistaken), yes, that is 5 days before i went to singapore..and i've count my money, n i kinda give up on that.. my money is just enough for the sg trip.

and at that time, im the one that like beast a lot. i mean tara, kinan doesn't like beast as much as i do, alin n aru havent 100% infected to my beast virus. and so, im the one who feell galau a lot. im kinda crazy when i saw my timeline full of beautiful show's ticket selling. i even curse the promoter, the "M", the one that brought westlife too, and make the concert in chaos.

you can asked jenny,irma,tara how galau i am... everytime i saw them, or chat them on fb,i was like "huhuhu,, what to do.. huuuu..." jenny always said "calm down, just pray that the ticket still avaible after u comeback from sg" but in my mind even though the ticket still avaible, i dont think i'll be able to watch that. i mean, hello i dont have any money tree, n my parents wont even allow me to do that crazy things.. two concert in a row... it's like every months im going to see a concert..

and then i got a text from alin. and she was said that she also heard about beautiful show, n guess what SHE ALSO FEEL GALAU.. lol.. lol.. and i feel happy... cause finally i have galau friend..lol.. ><

on the ticket sales day, we talked via telephone about this, and we decide to stay calm n wait. we'll buy the ticket after singapore, n we even contact a calo, to asked whether he can provide a ticket after feb 19th.lol..

and during sg, we always said "inget yoseob" if we want to buy sth..hhahaha...we still think about that beautiful show's galau... and well, the beast virus is spread and infected alin n aru a lot in singapore. everynight before sleep,we sing beast's song, and we recorded and sang "on rainy days" on marina bay, in front of light n water spectacular show. if i think about it again, this sounds a bit weird. i mean, im going to see ss4, but i always sing beast song.. lol.. aru even told me not to mistakenly sang any beast's song on ss4..lol.. and fiuh.. i manage not to, though i really want to sing "on rainy days" during ss4 goodbye..lol..

and aru is the one who is not suffering from that galau.. she always said, "what is it so good from a concert. u'll be just watching them singing,that's it.. and i believe if i saw one i'll be just calm down, do nothing, say nothing" but~~~ wait what happen to her next..lol..

and after singapore, i didnt see n contact aru n alin for like a week.. alin was hospitalized due to her sloppiness eat (drink) too much slurpee on sg..lol.. and after that, i saw aru on campus's mosque. and i was laughing hard at her.. idk, but i find it soooo funny..really.. and strange.. i mean we talk a lot during that preparation n sg trip, n suddenly we lost contact for about a week, n suddenly we met at the mosque..hahaha.. and at that time, i asked her "aruuu... beautiful show.. ottokae?" and she surprisely said " yukk.. kaja...let's go".. and i was like"huh?????" she's the one who said not to waste money on a concert, n suddenly she said let's go.. kkkkkk.. :p again burst my laugh.. lol..lol..

we choose to wait till early march to buy the ticket. i need to wait for my february salary too..lol.. n finally, a week before beautiful show, we went to rajakarcis n bought the ticket.. we bought the festival.. and we also prepare lots of project for the boys...

first, we made hand banner.. i made one for dujun, alin yoseob, n aru gikwang..then, we made videos, a thank you n tribute video for beast.. and for that video, we finally made hand banners for all member..lol.. we record a video on a karaoke, and it turns out good.. really !!! >< i upload it on youtube n we asked everyone to watch it.. but lately there's someone who press the unlike button.. :(

continue bout the beautiful show story, a day befor the show, we visited jitec, mangga dua.. we never went there, so we do a survey.. there's no specific security at that time, so we able to go to in front of the concert hall..lol.. we saw the venue, the stage before another audience saw it..lol.. there's only workers there.. and 3 of us walked around there confidently.. there's someone who's strangely looking at us, but we really dont care..kkk :p  i wanted to took some pics, but i dont have the courage..lol.. i still have that coward feel..lol..

the promoter also said that there'll be gift corner, so we can send our gift for beast.. and we choose to give them that tribute cd, and 3 pieces of Indomie..kkkk.. :p we want to give them Indomie rendang, but, we couldn't find any on the alfamart or any minimarket near my house, so we bought them "Indomie jumbo rasa ayam panggang" kkk.. :p

alin n aru stayed at my house on the night before the concert.. we want to wait for beast on the airport, but our project havent finished yet..so we just wait for the info via twitter.. gikwang the 1st one who arrive n tweet "hello jakarta" awww.. i was sooo happy... n around 11pm, all of them arrived on soetta... the "M" promoter always do this.. they always asked the artist to arrive midnight, so only a few fans that wait on the airport...

what i heard about their arrival is "gikwang paboly left his laptop on the plane" lol.. that brat is really~ huh... >< then "promoter provide them with a special exit on the airport, so they dont have to worry about the fans chaos, but beast said they want to exit on the normal gate n greet all their fans" OMOOOO...... I LOVE BEAST !!!!! I AM B2UTY FOREVER !!! <3 <3 <3


we arrived at jitec around 8am.. we sit in line on the 3rd floor and wait to be transfered to the 8th floor.. we made it in the front line, but later someone in front of us put in like 10 people on their line...i was like eww.... n the security didnt do anything !! >< that is one of the bad things in indonesia people.. NO DISCIPLINE !! and on 4pm, we started to move to the 8th floor. a bit chaos, but nothing serious.. i know the reputacy of the "M".. they did a bad job on westlife and 2 pm.. but im glad they make progress on beautiful show.. they devide the festival into 2 pen (during 2pm, they didnt do that, so one pen is more crowded than another), they separate the line into 2 types (the separation start after we move to the 5th floor, though it'll be good if the separation start from the 3rd floor).

we entered the venue on 6.30 pm. but, the line to enter the venue is CHAOS.. i mean, we made an "snake like" lining, but, the one whose at the back lining, but near to the gate "nyelak". so they entered first, and my friends n i are on the front line, but the farest from the gate.. so we really left behind :(

and on the venue alin n aru choose to stand near the side stage, n i stand in the corner of the main stage n the catwalk. well, my spot is actually the best n worst spot.. i mean it's near the main stage n catwalk, the place where the member always pass by, but that also the place where u can feel the biggest pressure from everyone behind you... and that's hurt..really... =,=

beast's songs were played during that one n half hour waiting, i was sing along with it, and all the audience did too.. so, i already lost my voice before the concert begin... on 8pm, the concert begin, the music start, i start to record using my camdig, and also the pressure start to getting worst..lol.. during special-shock-breathe, time passed by so fast.. and my festival is a bit chaos.. im afraid that beast'll angry just like westlife, but the words that came from them is "wow, indonesian b2uty is so energetic" lol.... ><

and how was the concert???  AWESOME !!!!! the BEST concert i ever attend.. their fan service is kinda 1000000 %.. >< i loooveee them, 2,5 hours never been enough !!!! and i sing along with them, with my left voice....><  yes, i know all their song !!! even the rap part !! >< during on rainy days, i was like, "omooo.. finally, sing on rainy days with beast is always been my dream" n it did come true... huaaa..... still cant believe that... >< i really want to cry, but there no tears come out from my eyes, there's only happiness, lots of it, on that night !!! ><

my baby boy,  Yoon Du Jun always come to my side, he smile a lot... huaaaa... i want to see him again,.... he was soooo handsome.. 

and Son Dong Woon, the old maknae, he is really really a namshin... he is SUPER DUPER HANDSOME.... he was like a prince, an angel.... he is more handsome than the prince choi siwon. yes i said that with my own mouth !!!!! 

Yang Yoseob, and Lee Kikwang is so cute, really... 

and Yong Junhyung.his smilee..aw aw aw... he is 100% SEXY.... kkkk :p 

and the 4d prince, Jang Hyunseung, he is also more handsome in real !!!.. they are all just PERFECT !!!

kiki's mike had a little trouble during easy, but there's no big deal on it, n juhyung drop his mic after his solo, n everyone shout "gwenchana..gwenchana" kkk.. :p and i feel the beautiful creep on my back hair during fiction.. the fanchant is soooo DAEBAK !!! " yoon dujun, jang hyunseung, yong junhyung, yang yoseob, lee gikwang, son dongwoon, so beast !" aww...... >< huaaa.. still can remember every single moment of that.. super happy !!! ><

i was like only less then 2 m away from dujun, dongwoon... dujun,dongwoon,kiki, and hyunseung stayed a lot near me... but junhyung n yoseob only pass by... >< huaaa.. i want beautiful show again... really... ><

after the concert, we waited for a taxi, and during that way back to my home, we cant stop talk about the concert..kkk.. :p alin n aru thanked me cause i've introduce beast to them..lol.. ><

huaaa.. still cant believe that night ever happen to me.. i mean, i almost didnt attend the concert, i was once saying "i'll skip this, i only knew them for like 6 months" (oh well, but during that time, i've known them a lot,lol)... huaa.. and i never regret how much money i spent on it, it was worthed !!! ><

and now, what happened to aru after the concert.. she said " the concert was amazing, and I WANT TO ATTEND THE NEXT BEAUTIFUL SHOW" lol.. she is 100% in love with beast, and she is 100% addicted to beast's concert..lol.. alin even said aru scream and yell during the concert..wkwkwk.. lol.. she fall for it..hahhaha.. ><

and before went to sleep, i had a lil chat with aru, and WE FORGOT TO PAY ATTENTION ON JUHYUNG TATTOOS !!!! huaaaaaaa... im curious about that alot !!! >< >< i want see the tattoos in real, with my bare eyes..kyaaaa... please repeat beautiful show again !!! jebal !!!... >< ><

and right now everytime i saw photos, fancam, or read stories about beautiful show, i feel like im going to cry.. :( i miss that night, i miss them, i miss staring at their smile, i miss sing along with them.. :(

"should i hug or not" talk, kiki so smexy in that unbutton shirt

after fiction, on rainy days, the fact. 3 of my favorite songs, where my dream come true :D

hyunseung !! he is handsome, i wish he smile more..

the stage, before started

those three~~

son namshin !!! angel on th earth !!

aww.. yoseobbie... >< the only photo of him i got

dongwoonie, idk our age gap, i'll still call u oppa..lol

shock ><

the big banner of beast.. we want to took photos, but too crowded.. ><

well, the stories still.... TO BE CONTINUE ( i've told you, a lot, alot of things right?)

tinki winki,dipsy,lala,poooo~~~

haaaaa~~~ saya bingung.. banget... !!!! ><

gak tau saya mash bisa dianggap sebagai pemilik blog ini apa gak. saya bahkan ga inget kapan terakhir kali ngepost.. >< mianhae~~ super mianhae.. :(

apa yg membuat saya tiba2 balik dan nulis? SAYA GAK TAU MAU NGAPAIN LAGI !!! hahahaha~~ well, these past 3 months were really really really AMAZING for me... seriously, just remembering it makes me smile the widest.. :D i've been through a lot, really a lot !! and that lots of things makes me HAPPY and i NEVER regret every single thing i've done on that past months..

but, why is it i said i have nothing to do??? well, yes, yes and yes.. it's my thesis !! that makes me crazy !!! i've done making all the printed module.. (2 months for 35x4 pages of module, with distraction of ss4, beautiful show, and k-variety show is kinda great right?hehhee.. :p) but then, i stuck in the interactive CD.. i dont know how to linking all the videos n animations !! i've tried load movie action script, get URL, and everything.. but it just not good enough !! it works, it is, but still that's not the best.. and now im in the phase of looking n waiting for some flash geeks to help me~~ yeorobun, please contact me if u know one !!!

and now what is that LOTS of things that i've been through?

1. Westlife Gravity Tour (october 5th 2011)
hehehe.. this is my FIRST westlife concert !!!! im kinda happy and expecting this a lot.. i even prepared a 2x2m banner with kinan. and of course, i hang it on the tribune wall.. and everyone saw it !!!! ><
to be honest, this concert score only 70(out of 100). westlife is still amazing, mark and shane voice is kinda WOW.. but, the safety management was terrible !!.. the concert paused for 30 mins !! imagine that !! the festival is over crowded, so westlife themselves, yes, my 4 beautiful lads that asked to paused the concert. they afraid there'll be fans that'll collapese, cause the front festival is really chaotic !!

but of course im still happy.. i almost cried when they sang "my love" and all the audience singing along with them..kyaa.. the best moment... ><

2. SPS !! (January 20th, 2012)

yes.... this was hmm... probably the strange-est day ever... i mean, in the morning before the sps, i feel like dying.. i really want to cry :( sooo nervous !! i do my "self motivated" thing: look at my self in the eye (with mirror of course) and tell my self IM AWESOME. then along the P7+47 buses, i only listen BEAST-YOU.. kkk... :p that song really makes me smile, smile of happiness.. imagening them sing that in front of you is really waaaww... >< 

and then the SPS went well.. kkk :p i cant control my self to keep debating my lecturer, and my friends like "code-ing" me with their hands, like saying calm down.. hahaha... but yeah, it's good, not as scary as i thought..

and after SPS, my friends and i went to d' cost, we had lunch there !!! >< hahahha~~ that was like the best lunch ever !! it was like, u've been to a great stress with all ur friends, together, n we're releasing it all !! and that day was the 1st day that i came back home from college with a WIDE smile..hehhehe.. :D

3. singapore and ss4 !!! (february 16th-19th, 2012)

after sps, i focusing my self on planning the singapore n ss4 tour..lol.. i made passport, choose hostel, flight, and booked it, i plan places to visit, money to spend,spot to eat, train route... well, it is my 1st time traveling abroad, and my friends n i will be doing alone, by ourselves, no tour guide, and this is cost a lot, so i want this to be great, i dont want to lose any single minute to be confuse or lost..kkkk :p 

and thanks to ma'am sari, for lending us her credit card, so we can booked everything.. >< 

the member of this trip were me, alin, aru, tika, and her mom.. so, it's 5 of us, the newbies, travelling to singapore.. kkk :p 

after doing all the research, discussing, we chose to stay in Mitraa Inn hostel, serangoon, and use jetstar flighr. we're staying in sg for aobut 4 days.. and we also booked universal studio ticket.. thx agan mojualbeli in kaskus !! ><

and that options we choose were THE BEST !!! 

Mitraa Inn hotel is really clean, comfortable, and has great service (well, dont mention that i cant sleep at night, kkk :p that's actually a habit if i need to sleep in a new place). we stayed in 5 bed private room (with separate bathrooms, but our room was right beside the bathroom, so yeay.. we always be the 1st person to take a bath).. the matress is great, the AC is function well too, the breakfast menu is great too (toast with chocolate/peanuts jam, apple, banana, boiled egg).. we only had a little trouble in the automatic key.. and oh, we caused that problems i think. physics students have instinct to open some "interesting" gadget.. lol..lol..><

and the location is sooo strategic.. right in front of us is bus shelter, by 5 mins walk there's MRT station, with 8mins walk u'll find mustafa center, and in 10mins walk, u'll find tekka center, little india (mustafa center, little india is 2 of shopping spots in sg)

Jet Star airways wa great too.. easy to booked, nice service, on time, and we got a free bread n water too.. and oh, on return flight to jakarta, our back are overweight, and the officer asked us to put it to the plane bagage (we dont rent any bagage package,it's expensive). i mean, our bag cant be put in cabin bagage cause it's overweight.. we were so scared, cause what i know is that bagagae overweight will cost lots of money. i mean it was our return flight. i my self only left 30 sgd + idr 500000 on my wallet... >< but when i asked the officer "how much is the bagage cost?" she answerd "diam-diam".. and of course, i confuse, and i asked her again, and she said again "diam-diam aja" and yes that's mean FREE !!! lol.. FREE !!! hahhaha..

and we bought the USS ticket on the right place.. we bought in 60 sgd on kaskus, and later on uss, we met some indonesian who bought sgd 69 on a travel agent in jakarta, and there's also who bought it sgd 63 on the USS.. and that sgd 60 is a straight ticket, i mean, not a voucher, or printed ticket that need to be exchanged to the real one. 

and how is USS?? really great !! all the things that i ride is really making me  "WOW".. kkk.. :p we rode battlestar galactica "human" that was crazy !! reallly, my face is really pale, really bad, before the ride begin. and i think people who wait in line were laughing at me. i was so scared.. but now, i really want to ride it again!! kkk.. :p we also ride jurrasic "arung jeram" i forget the name, and im the one who get wet, relly wet on that. canopy flyer, that one i'll never forget.. liar!! you liar!! hahaha.. mummy returns ride was good too.. and transformer is the best!!! it's really a MUST TRY !!! but the line is sooooo long !!! we need to wait fo 30mins...

singapore is a great city... i love the MRT..love it a lot..that was the best thing in sg.. MRT is the one that made me want to stay n live in sg..kkk.. :p and also sg have great view... i mean, merlion park, the free water n light show in marina bay, if i live there, i'd visit it every weekend.. kkkk. :p 

last, the super junior and super show days... pay attention  to the word "DAYS" yes.. not just a single day. i watch ss4 only in the 1st day, but my super junior day is more than a day. !!!! lol.. 

first, i arrive on changi airport, on feb 16th, around 1 pm.. and guess what, that was also the time where CHOI SIWON and LEE DONGHAE arrive from taiwan !! and yes, WE MET SIWON AND DONGHAE ON CHANGI !!! im kinda regret it why we exit the gate, we should've stayed inside longer.. ><

i actually knew that siwon n donghae'll arrive on the same day,but idk if we'll arrive in the same time. i dont even know from what gate'll they exit. and because of we dont know anything about changi, right after we pass the immigration, we kept on walking,just walking, and we saw a little crowd (it was less then 70 people) standing in line, holding banners with korean words.. we actually didnt want to wait too, cause we already met the person who'll take us to the hostel (it's tika's mom friend)..but, finally we wait..kkk :p and after like 10-20 mins, they arrived !! SIWON IS REALLY HANDSOME IN BARE FACE !! and donghae, he is so short..lol..sorry..kkk :p

after that, we straight going to the hostel, check in, put our bag, rest a bit, and we straight exploring sg !!! marina bay was our 1st destination.. we tooks photos, and eat in mcdonalds, we met indonesian workers there.. after going around marina bay, we went to plaza singapore.. and yes, that is the place where SKIP BEAT FANSINGING WITH SIWON N DONGHAE located !! we arrive there around 6.30 pm, and already crowded !! the fansigning itself start at 7pm.. and siwon still handsome, but he n donghae wears to much face powder, make up!! they looks sooooo whitee, and over whitee.. lol.. >< we didn't get the sign, we even didn't have time n space to stare at them. really crowded n the security yell and told us to keep moving..lol...

after that, we comeback to marina bay for the light n water spectacular show .. we missed the 1st show, so we waited for one n a half hour for the 2nd show... we were really tired, but the show is amazing... they use water as the screen... >< that was the 1st day..

the 2nd day we went to USS, as i told you, USS is really great.. i actually didn't plan to go there. only alin n aru.. but at the end all of us went there..kkk :p we also bought some lolipo n chocolate from candylicious store.. and i still have the lolipop till now..lol.. ><

the 3rd day was SS4... only tika n me watched it.alin,aru, and tika's mom went to bugis, botanical garde,etc.. i feel really super tired at that time... we need to wait in line from 9am-6pm for the show..the lining is really discipline n organized... we sit it line, no one "nyelak".. we also met lots of indonesian there.. how's the show? well, as expected, that was REALLY GREAT, and everyone around me were SCREAMING NON STOP DURING THAT 4 HOURS SHOW.. idk where they got power from... >< things that i wont forget was during perfection,acha,mr simple,operea... omoo.. i feel sth creep in my back hair.. i mean the atmosphere is really great.. everyone yell fanchant, the music was great, n i sang along with them.. and YESUNG IS SOO HANDSOME !!! HE IS LIKE 200% MORE HANDSOME IN REAL THEN IN PHOTOS !!!!!  yesung,hae,teuk stayed in front of me a lot, while my boy siwon only pass by once or twice =,=.. and of course, i got present for them, yes, a westlife cd.. i dont have time to wrap it/write sth on it, so i only brought ir barely.. during goodbye, i show it to donghae, and he was staring at me, and the cd strangely, like "buya, what is that girl bringing" lol... >< and yes, im failing that.. lol.. ><

the concert finished at 10 pm, i bought original lighstick n L holder.. kkk :p and i also bring the saphire blue baloon..lol.. tika was really scared of balloon, sorry kk :p and that night, is the night where i sleep comfortably for the 1st time in the hostel..hehhehe.. :p

and the last day, we went around the serangoon street,looking for chocolate n parfum store.. we walked for 10mins but still cant find one,so we choose to do bus ride...hehee.. we ride bus without any destination, and when we arrive on the last terminal, we going back n ride the same bus..lol... ><

 marina bay

 merlion park

before ss4 with tika 

during ss4 goodbye, yess, suju is behind me.

after ss4

on the batu timah bus terminal

in front of light n water spectacular show: TIRED

universal studio !!

penasaran hal gila apa lagi yg uda gw lakukan????? penasaran kan? and that makes this story to be continue~~~ <3