miss them lately..

The Calling

a band that i love since junior highschool.. yesterday i add adrienne and could it be any harder to my playlist, and i combine it with lifehouse songs : halfway gone and you n me.. huaaa.. that was a PERFECT mix of my blue night..hahha.. so bad i lost their cassette

What I'm needing now is some sweet revenge
To get back all that I lost then
I gave you all I had to give, but I could never reach you

So take these words, some good advice
All you've done gonna come back twice
You never cared how much it hurt, I really need to tell you

gambar1
gambar 2

will i?

just saw the picture of my senior graduation..huaaaa,,,, i looked in their happy eyes, tried to feel their heart beats, and i suddenly cry. aaaaaa...

will i feel the same someday??

Ya, Allah.. i make my self up, i swear, i'm gonna try and do my best for it.. a graduation, a spectacular one, with GPA > 3.6. someday in 2012.. amien..

and then i think about future, the very large and long way above them.. i'm sure that all my senior will have a very great future.. they are awesome! they must do many hardworks to reach their future.. be success sir, mam (should call then sir/mam, cause now they are officially a teacher)

and i questioned my self ; will i reach my own bright future? will i become someone,something USEFUL? will i make Allah and my parents proud?

then i whisper my prayer again.. Ya Allah, the one who can make the impossible to possible, the one who created me and the whole nature and creature around.. i declare this. that i'm gonna be someone, that will carry my self to be useful to everyone around me.. to make smile in my parents face everyday of their life.. please Allah, don't let me fail...amien..

and finally
i pray for me, for my 2008th friends, we are gonna graduate, someday, later in 2012, not only a graduation, a ceremony of our success.. amien...

contrast ?!

hellow...

it's almost the last week of March.. and mid test is getting closer..aaawwwwqq.... gotta study hard to reach GPA >3.6 waaaa...

i enjoyed this week..hmm,yeah just enjoy.. i didn't have nuclear physics class on monday, which i would love to do this every week (you wish! hahaha) i spent my monday by finishing the DPS task in Tara's room.. hehehee.. i painted the wood skeleton of it... before i got home, tara, dwl and i ate chicken noodle in front of the fire station..haa.. it's been a long time.. maybe the last time we ate there were when we at the 3rd semester.. then, tara and i went to Arion.. saya dan tara senyum2 gak jelas waktu ngeliat CD Westlife di salah satu toko kaset...hhehehehe..nyengir2 sendiri..harganya 75rb..mau beli, tapi nunggu gajian bulan maret dulu deh..mudah2an masih ada..hehehe

on tuesday, i just had a so-so day..heee.. i had a metlit class and we talk about deduktif-induktif..hihihi..and my group and i had another solid physics discussion..wew.. i didn't get the part to present the material, so i just listen to my friends explanation...

wednesday i straight going home from college. and yeah, nothing special.. i hate this wednesday cause the lecturer of solid physics suddenly ask our group to present the material of lattice vibration.. we didn't prepare anything, so some our chosen member present it in front of the class with only little preparation...aarrggghh.. i feel useless, cause i can't help them...huuuu..and i found my self got a fever (again).. it was so bad, that i couldn't use a fan at night. it was already cold even if i slept without fan...

and thursday, only had waves class untuil 10 am. before i got home, dwl and i went to arion to bought conan #60.. yeay,, finally.. and we had an early lunch at Hokben. kinda miss this restaurant..and at night, i struggled so hard to finish all the KM tasks..haaahh..so tiring! and the flu is getting worse.. so i took my father pills and yeah, i feel better..

friday comess...this friday was soo boringg.. i get bored with all the KM stuffs and i couldn't enjoy the late waves class either..ahh.. and the TJ was sooo latee......... i waited almost an hour just to get into the 3rd corridor bus...aarggghh..

what i'm excited of this week was the fact that next week one of my classmate gonna married..aaaa..aa.a.a.a.a she must be so happy and nervous right now.. hope everything goes well, and i already plan to attend the wedding.. can't wait to see the beautiful bride and hadnsome groom...

i'm actually lazy to post this. but i've already promise my self to write my weekly activity just to increase my english, writing skills, and yeah remind me of what i've done..heheh...

what i wanted to telling you with the title is actually these snippets of westlife lyrics (again)

Westlife-Have You Ever Been In Love

Have you ever felt
How far a heart can fall
Have you ever stayed up waiting
For a telephone call
Just to hear her say hello
Cause you miss each other so
Have you ever been in love?

Have there been times to laugh
And times you really want to cry
Finding reasons to believe her
cause you'd die a little if she lied
And when in times of doubt
Have you ever tried to work it out
But still she leaves you wondering
What it's all about

And when she's far away
Have you ever felt the need to stray
And tried and then discovered
It just doesn't pay
Cause with her, you can be true
And with her, you can be you
Have you ever been in love?


and

Westlife-A Total Eclipse Of The Heart


Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart


ahaaa.. the lyrics was so contrast.. once we fall in love, we should be ready to hurt by love..
gonna share my wonderful saturday and sunday later.. ;D

semangat !!!

I've spent all my life
Chasing all my dream
I'm not letting this gooooooo...

(mark feehily sings in Reason For Living-Westlife)

no ones gonna sleep tonight

wanna share some pictures that always smile me up ...






here

this is a picture of me and KIR Paramitha SMAN 78 Jakarta went to a seminar missing them a lot

and also,, i love looking at A.C Milan pictures.. it sometimes so funny and also tearing. and i miss Inzaghi a lot..haaaa.. he is a great player. he always be in the right place and time to score a goal. even the most talented coach, Mourinho and also one of the best football player Pele, acknowledge Inzaghi as a very great and the most feared player in the field. once on champions league AC Milan VS Real Madrid (Madrid was trained by Mourinho), madrid was leading the game 0-1, and then at the second half, Inzaghi scored 2 goals only in less than 45 minutes. even in the end madrid scored again and it finished with draw 2-2. it proved that yes, Inzaghi always have the luck to win a goal (mourinho did hug Pippo after the match, and before it he also told that he only afraid of Pippo in Milan) and if u wanna know, Mou once wait up just to ask Inzaghi jersey..... some sport commentator said that Inzaghi proves that it doesn't matter if you skilless, as long as you always stay tune on the match, you will get the chance to score the goal..

wish i'm the one who sit next to Pippo.. (hehehehee)

got the picture from here

how does it feel

haaa..finally got the time for writing... miss this blog soo much..

well, i think this week (13th to 19th of march) was so tiring... aaaa.. the nuclear physics class is getting (much more) harder.. we were not only talking about nucleus itself but also the shell of nucleus and its configuration...weweweeeeewwww... it's actually interesting cause i just found out that just like the shell of atom, the nucleus shell also has a configuration based on its energy.. but, of course it much more complex than the atom... the funny thing is that every nucleon on atom (neutron and proton) has their own potential well (hahaha,, if you don't get it, well means sumur)..yaaa.. during the class i imagine the funny look of this well (if well is sumur, then what does you know me so well-smash lyrics means?? kamu tau saya sumur? wakakak...)

then on tuesday my solid physics group and i had a very long groupwork. as i told you before, the solid physics lecturer gave us a crazy task. we had given time to search for the material, and on tuesday we collect all the data and arrange it into modul.. aaa we did it from 9 am, and still haven't finish in 6pm. and there was a bad accident when one of my friend forgot to save her edits.. aaaa.a.aa... dwl had to stay up until 3am to finish this. and i also did worst thing, i've given task for printing the modul,i've asked dwl to text me if it finished, i wait up until 3am but there aren't any message. and in the morning, i didn't check my email,and yes, i didn't print the modul..aaaa...aaa.aa.a.a.a.a and so dwl print it in her house. sorry guys !

these were the picture taken when we getting insane with all the solid stuffs

wednesday, i had the class of solid state. instead of prepring for the presentation, irma,tara,netta,jenni and i busy looking in the lapto catalogue from the computer bazaar..hehhee.. there were many new cute laptop. i fall in love to the double 7" monitor laptop from toshiba..aaaa... it so cute and sophisticated.. and when the lecturer came, he angry cause we didn't prepare the infocus and laptop for the presentation, but sitting in the floor reading catalogue..haaaa

and i finally had a waves and vibration class after two weeks break.. but, on thursday the lecturer was so KRIK, and it made all the class silence and boring..hehehe.. but on friday the class was nice and funny. the lecturer notices that a class on 3pm-5pm could be really boring and sleepy, so he jokes a lot..

and i'm so happy with my saturday. my mom, sister and i gone shopping to Thamrin City. it was a very nice place to shopped. it actually looks like tanah abang, but it is not as crowded as tanah abang. so we didn't get confused, and the display so nteresting... i found many cheap clothes in my size.. i'm so happy.. and we plan to go back to buy shifon clothes...hehhe

and i also download many westlife songs from the deluxe album to gravity..love it!!!!Kinan told me about "reason for living" songs.. and it is really good. i love bryan voice in that song. it so clear and sexy..aaaa... and it means so deep.. these are the lyrics that bryan sings :

With all the time you're taking
Slowly my hearts been breaking
You've been fine I've been bleeding
I'll have to wait my turn
Your respect I'll earn
No more joking or teasing

and how does it feel (where the title of my post actually comes from) song is great too.. this osng is about the expression of someone that finally have the chance to feel the joy of being loved and in love...aaa...

And how does it feel
When I hold you in my arms
And you're lying next to me
Never wanting you to leave
Until I'll tell you how it feels
To be cradled like my dreams
And to know that you love me
No more wasting time in asking other people
How does it feel

i love the notes of the music and sings on the red part..

psstt... that song remind me of someone from the past


and i love this quotes below. i like the idea of being weird is special..
and the picture is takin grom here.
it is very nice, cute blog. i don't know the owner, but i enjoy reading it... seems like he is the perfect one to be loved.. yes, the blogger is a man...hhahaa

hey whatever

hola...gonna continue bout Westlife later. this is my weekly post..

hmm.. this 2nd week of march is so so..hahaha.. i went to many classes, didn't find any interesting topic, and i apparently miss the waves class..hahha.. well, i had nuclear physics on monday. and this subject is getting hard ! huh.. the whole thing we talk about in this class is abstract !.. yeah, even the cleverest and genius scientist haven't got the chance to see how nucleus of atom look like.. aaaaagghh.. and on tuesday the lecturer of Metodologi Penelitian gave a very serious task about the first chapter of skripsi.. aaargghh.. couldn't find any topic that suits mee... please pray for me.. and yeah the usual elementary teaching was fine too..

i also enjoy having a chat with my old friend from junior high school recently.. he goes to the same university. and we accidentally took the same TJ busway. we talked bout the old high school stuffs, our math teacher mr. nainggolan, and bout physics. he is a machine technic student but he interested in physics..hahaha..

and i really mad on wednesday, the lecturer of solid state physics gave us task to summarize a chapter and to present bout it..haaaa.. i mean, he haven't teach anything, but gave a hard task.. it must be nice to be a lecturer..hahhaa

and on thursday, my class held KRIK (class recitation) at irma's aunt house in cimanggis...it's a long journey to go, but she has a very nice and comfortable house.. i love the rock wall, the Puncak atmosphere... aaahh..want to stay there longer..hehhe.. and her aunt also made a vegetables ice cream.. it tasted nice, and would be better if we add more milk and chocolate..hahaha

and yeah, i was quite happy on friday. i still feel nervous bout the Keterampilan Mengajar, and sometimes i hate it cause some of the lecturer statement makes me think that being teacher is hard, and we force to be the perfect one..aaaaa... please pray for me everyone.. i'm so afraid of failing this.. ya Allah help me get through this..

and suddenly i heard a news that Japan hitted by Tsunami..ya Allah, please save all my brother and sister there. the tsunami struck the industrial center of Japan. i saw from the video on TV that many fire burn detected on many factories, the nuclear center also leaked because of the failing cooling system..aaa.. it just like the third bomb for Japan.. they need lots of strength to recover.. lets pray and hope the will get through this.. amien..

my saturday and sunday filled with relax time at home, and ive been freaking my self out reading the stuff of #WestlifeJKT on twitter... aaaaaaaa... i expect a lot from this, and the last news i had there is a promotor that now preparing an offer for the W management to bring W here in Jakarta...aaaaaarrghhh.. i'm so excited.. been retweeting lots of tweet bout this... planning to save IDR 50000 every week to buy the ticket.. aaaa.... aaa..

and i can't stop my self to titling my posts with westlife song.. hahaha

let's go for monday !

WESTLIFE in me (part 1)

heei.. finally got the time to write the special post 'bout Westlife... aaaa.. missing them soo much.. just like the carpenters says :

It was songs of love that
I would sing to then
And I’d memorize each word
Those old melodies
Still sound so good to me
As they melt the years away

yes, i still feel all the emotions in W songs, the same emotions, that i used to feel long time ago.. just like i've said before, when everyone is having a bad bieber fever, i still get this Westlife syndrome..ahaha..

well,,let me flash back of my first intoduction to W. it was 11 years ago, i was on the 4th grade of elementary school, still a cute lil child hahaha, not even teenager.. the 4th grade was also my first time having English lesson in school, and i found myself interested in this a lot. and then i listened to I Have a Dream, and by hearing from many news around. it was Westlife, the one who sings I have a dream..

at time i was having a fight with my best -est friend Ade, yeah, the class was devided into 2 groups, mine and hers..hahha.. no one will deny that both of us were the superb most influencing girls in class..hahaha.. i didn't remember how we made up, but we both find ourselves as the same Westlife fans..hahaha.. and guess what we had the same favorite W member, Bryan McFadden...aaaa.. and yeah, we influenced all the girls around us, dian, nana, kiki, ayu, tia to listen to W songs. and we continued this. Shane was Kiki's favorite, Nicky was Nana's favorite, and Kian was Putri and Dian favorite... yeah, we didn't find anyone who's been favoriting Mark. but then, we brought a poster of W and had my teacher looked at it. and we asked, who was the most charming W member?, and my teacher, mrs. Darlinah said "mark".. aaaa.. and this mark answer also happen when we asked it to our mom..haaa.. you can conclude this..

and yeah suddenly, W came to Indonesia, we never got the chance to see them live. we didn't have money, our parents considered us too little and afraid we will be trampled by the crowd. so, we just saw the concert in TV. and followed the news from the Tabloid. I still remember the Tabloid name was Fantasi. haa.. this tabloid was just like a hit at that time (and now it's gone).. but i didn't quit trying to see them live. i had an uncle that works on the TV station that broadcast W concert live. i asked him to took me with him if there's another W concert.. i expected this a lot.. but then, i couldn't done anything (again) in the 2nd W concert..aaa.. so sad..

when i was in the 5th grade, my teacher asked our class to gave a performance for the 6th grade graduation.. we chose to dance with W song I Lay My Love On You as the background music. the personel was me, ade, kiki, nana, and dian. we created all the moves i Nana's house. well, Kiki gave a great contribution on it.

finally the day of graduation was come. i forgot where it was held, in Cibodas or Safari park. we performed the dance well..haha.. there was a funny incident, we dance in an unflat plane, and Nana's position was right in the steepest plane. and suddenly she fells off..hahaha.. but she was Ok and stand up continuing the dance.. we also had a new friend in the 5th grade named Dwi. and her mother was also a big fans of W. we lucky that we could borrow many W VCDs from her..hahaha..

i still had W in me at the 6th grade. and there was a big news that hit us a lot. it was the news that W will had a collaboration with Sherina, one of Indonesia's little singer. haaa.. we can't accept this. we hate sherina a lot. ade and i were mad at this. we stopped ourselves from Sherina. we stopped listen to her songs, watch her movie.. we thought it wasn't fair... we thought Sherina was only yesterday's child..

As i told before, Ade and I were the leader of W fans in class, we collect all the albums (in cassette format). at that time, it was Westlife Deluxe and Coast to Coast. we bought many magazines and tabloids that had W news on it. we collected many posters and had it glued on our bedroom walls. we watch MTV just to see any of W music video. we woke up late at midnight just to watch an award with W on it, or watch the replay of their concert... we memorized all the W member birthday, favorite things, eyes color, hometown, etc..haaa..

they've been there with me all the time.. and i'm gonna post some pics and continnuing this later.. :)

why do i love you

another westlife post from me..

ain't gonna show no weakness
i'm gonna smile and tell the whole world i'm fine
i'm gonna keep my senses
but deep down, when no one can't hear me
i'll be crying for you



dedicating this
for my one who's still trying to find the best
for my one who's looking for the perfect match
for my one who never give up a chance
for my one who never stop trying, hoping, and praying
for my one who let me had a very good memory
for my one who always keep smiling



you are awesome..
you deserve the best..
you are amazing..
you deserve perfection..

just trust that !




why do i love you?
DON"T EVEN WANT TO
why do i love you like i do
like i always do

world of our own

we've got a little
world of our own
i tell you things that no one else knows
i let you in where no one goes
what am i do without you?

all of the things i've been looking for
always been here outside of my door
all of the time i'm looking for something new
what am i do without you?

ok, i'm now having a very bad, acute westlife syndrome..hahaha.. yes, again, i found my self different with another. when everyone's now is getting a bad bieber fever, i (still) can't cure my self from this westlife syndrome..hahaha.. (i've download all the version of WOOO video, the UK version, US version, live on tour, acoustic, studio version..aa love it)

this post is actually a late post for the first week of march.. yiheaaa, this probably the most tiring first week ever.hahaha.. i found myself not so lucky that i should faced a very long waiting just to get in TransJakarta. the Harmoni-PCG bus was rare, the Kota-Blok M waitings are the worst. many people got angry with the TJ service..

my monday was very mess. i had a sudden teaching appointment at 4 pm, i haven't got and read the lesson, and by 3 pm i was still stuck on matraman shelter. i've waited so long for Harmoni-PCG, i got frustrated so i take the PGC-Ancol. the Senen's traffic light was so annoying. it was the longest red light time in Jakarta. so i have to postpone it to 5pm, and i'm still hurry to catch that.. luckly the class was enjoyable..

and on Tuesday, i had (another) sudden 3 classes teaching..aaaa.. i actually only agreed of 2 classes teach, but the 6th grade class teacher wasn't come for uncertain reason. since there wasn't anyone left to teach, i had to teach the 6th grade too..waaa.. that was exhausting..

my friend and i visited ITC Cempaka Mas on Thursday..we looked for a present for our senior.. hahha., two of my senior was gonna be a couple. they were gonna get married..aaa.. i'm so happy with that.. but then, we saw a store that sells many cute wedges and flat shoes only for ID 25000..aaaa.., we suddenly forget the present,,,hahah.. i bought a pair of brown velvet wedges (plan to wear it on my senior wedding,picture later). i actually wanted to buy another shoes from the store, but i need to save money for the Islamic Bookfair (plan to visit it after the wedding)..haha

and again, i feel the nerve of having a Keterampilan Mengajar class. this Friday we taught by mrs. wirda. we hadn't been teach by her before. she's actually had an interesting class, we forced to speak active..she didn't want us to just transfer a knowledge, but building it. that was a very great statement. but then, most of my classmates (and maybe according me) didn't get all the lessons well. we still confuse at some certain part of it..

saturday, i had a discussion with my PKM team.. we started to do the first scene, and it took a whole day just to make that..aaaaaa... it just too hard, too little time... i realize that i just need to stay, to be positive, to be optimist.. wanna go to Makassar for PIMNAS..

and i LOOOVEEE sunday.. my friends and i attended our senior wedding. it was a crowded wedding, the bride and groom looks happy and cheerful. glad they finally made this decision.. hope you both be happy ever after.

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this sunday also my first time wearing wedges..aaa.. it was so tiring and hurtfull.. i can made it until Zuhur. but when i arrive at the IBF on Senayan, i gave up. i couldn't stand the pain. so, i and dwl (this also her first time) took off the wedges and we went along the IBF with bare feet..and again i misscontrol my expense, and bought many comics at IBF.. i didn't plan to buy it. just wanted to buy cheap books at Serambi and Mizan, but i saw the new seri of Ghostgirl. adn i bought it for IDR 40000 (actual price IDR 50000)

i also bought a bedtime stories book..hahha.. ever since i teach elementary students, i feel a little childish than before. i love to lis

and i had a very bad journey on the way back home.. the TJ was so crowded and rare. i hate this !!! can't you feel my pain. i hurt my feet cause of the wedges, and need to stand in line wait for the rare TJ..aaa... thank for the mercy of Allah i got a seat on the TJ...

and i also wanna share the new look of my bookshelf (excuse the messy table)...hahaha it's getting full.. love to staring at it..

waaa.. looking forward for the next trip...