Dujunnie rang durie~

So, recently, there are many bad rumors regarding beast, their comeback, album sales, style, fans etc. and i decided to write this. a very honestful story about how, me, a fangirl, know and fall into Beast. I hope haters can read this, and know that beauty choose the right idol.

Hmm... Actually, Beast is not a group that made me know and love kpop. I know and love kpop because of other group. At that time, i was so into that group. I mean, i confess that they are really good at everything, and me as the newbie in kpop i really melted by all their skills.

One day, i was streaming the comeback stage of that group. The MC of the show mentioning the chart list, and Beast-Fiction is on the top 10. Me, who was always interested in sth a bit unusual, think that Beast is a very unique name, and their song title Fiction made me curious of what does the song about. I said to  my self, let's find out more about them later.

At that time i was too mesmerized by that 1st kpop group i liked, and the plan to look out for beast and the fiction inside them is forgotten. But, the faith of me and beast isn't over yet. I once streams a bora of Kiss The Radio, and they played Beast-Fiction, and i remembered my old curiousity about beast. That was my first time hearing Beast-Fiction, and yes Fiction is my 1st Beast song. My 1st impression about Fiction is "hmm.. this song kinda good. it's not too slow and not too upbeat". So, i decide to download the Music Video. During this time i also found out that Beast's fan club name is Beauty, and their album title is Fiction and Fact. and i think those are really really cutee, and unique.

I'm not an easy to persuade person. It took more than a semester for me to finally liking kpop. And it also happens at Beast thing. I watched Fiction MV,

and i was like "aaahhh.. this boyband isn't handsome.. they are strange.. they are too old to be boyband.. my 1st kpop group still the best." that's really an honest comments from me. But, again, i'm interested in a unique thing, and i personally think that the face of Beast's member is very unique, and Fiction is a catchy song too, so i kept the MV in my laptop. But i keep on fangirling my 1st kpop group.

From my 1st kpop group, i got many friends from all over the world, and some of them are really close to me. we created a FB group consist of many people from many countries that like that group. We like to play many things, a quiz and also role player. We once played a role player as the members of my 1st kpop group. I play as my bias in that 1st group. But, the member of the FB group increasing at time, and we need more character to play. So, one of  my friends decided to add Gikwang as the character. Me, i don't know who is Gikwang, but, again, his name, Gikwang sounds a bit unique to me, Gikwang sounds like Giwang, an Indonesia word means earrings. so i do google, and found out that Gikwang is one of the member of Beast.

And after that i searched for Beast profile, and found one on Kaskus. And i was really really shocked while read their profile. Remember, i once told you that Beast members looks so strange and too old. The strange one is Yoseob, because his nose is kinda weird for an idol, and the old ones are Dujun and Hyunseung. I really thought that Dujun is a lot older than Super Junior Leeteuk. and guess what, Dujun is the oldest in beast and he is the leader of Beast, and he was born in 1989 which is only one year older than me !!! and that means other members are younger that him. that's really shocking me. I also thought that Yoseob, except the fact that his nose is strange, is the maknae, but actually Dongwoon is the maknae. Okay, i started to think that this group is interesting.

Then, i go back to Fiction music video, to find out, which one is who. and i can only acknowledge which one is YS (by his nose), GK (by his short, neat hair), JS (by his red hair). and i cant differentiate junhyung, dongwoon and dujun. I didn't stop, i thought that like my 1st kpop group, beast should've have a live performance video. So, i look for that and my 1st Fiction live performance video was this
 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bgr5lqYTnAY

At that video, Gikwang was super hot. He is so handsome, cute and muclesfull, so i decided that okay, he is my bias in Beast. Gikwang is the 1st Beast's member i followed on twitter.

And i keep listen and listen to Fiction. then i started to fall in love with Dujun's intro part and Junhyung's rap. I keep on listening, but korean was very hard for me at that time, so i still cant sing it, and don't have any motivation to learn to sing. and i also found the video of them singing fiction live in a radio without any background music. and their voice were really great. very great. all the members have the same voice qualities. and i also found this picture of YS and DW

and kyaaaa.. YS is soo cutee.. ><  hahha

fiction is way too cool that i even imagine to perform it live with my dewi, kinan, and tara. i was like "it'd be cool if we can sing and dance to it live". lol.lol..hahha.. so, i finally learn to sing this song, also the rap part. hmmm... ever since junior high school, i always interested in rap, or, singing fastly (singing fastly, i called it that way, cause idk any techniques how to rap, i just sing the words fastly). i never like any specific rapper, but there's some of old 90s western boybands, have "fast to sing" song, like A1-Too Bad Baby, and C21-Deep Down. And i can follow their "fast singing" beat. so, it isn't impossible to learn, and yes, i finally can sing the whole song of Fiction. and once, kinan, tara, and i went to a karaoke, i sang Fiction.

Kinan and Tara like to sang many korean songs that i don't know at that time and i mostly sing western boyband songs. if we want to sing korean song together it'd be my 1st kpop group songs. the only Korean song that i know, and they don't know is Fiction. So, i decided to look more for Beast's song. so i can sing more korean songs. and i found On Rainy Days.

the 1st on rainy days video i got is their performance in inkigayo, and on that performance they really sing it nicely with a real rain pouring on them. and i was kyaaaa.. that is water, water, and they sing under the rain.. cool. and the member i pay more attention on in this video is not Gikwang, but Dujun. I've told you that i really like people with unique face. I really like Filippo Inzaghi, AC Milan's football player, a lot, and my friends couldn't get the idea of how can i liking an old and not handsome guy like that, while there are kaka and shevchenko who are young, handsome, and skillfull. and i think this law of attraction also applied to Dujun.

His face, there aren't any attractiveness at all, but i like the way he stand, i think he really cool. He really look like a man. Hmmm.. if you know a Taiwan drama "They Kissed Again", the main character, the doctor (husband), is a man that seems like hating his wife, and he seems like don't care at all at her. but, there are time when he secretly taking care of here, with a very cute care, very sweet. and i think Dujun has that kind of image. and.. I really like that type of man ;_____; and on that On Rainy Days video i saw Gikwang is really short compared to other members. hahhaha.. that makes me "ilfil" a bit.

until that time my feeling to Dujun and beast still in phase of "they are interesting and makes me curious". My main fandom is still the 1st kpop group.

Because of my curiousity, i keep on searching more about Beast, other song, i found Soom, Shock, and Say No. and those songs are really catchy and suits my ear. well, im not fall to that song on the 1st time i listen to it, but if i listen to it again and again, my ear start to get comfortable and addict to it. kyakyakyakya. and Yoon Dujun, his getting more and more attractive. One day, i told tara about Beast, and i showed her On Rainy Days performance, and Tara asked which member is your bias in Beast, and guess what i answered "Dujun, the leader" kyakyakyakya.. hahahha. Tara also told me that there's other cool video where Dujun and Dongwoon duet, and played piano, the song titled "When the door closes". Tara had known kpop earlier than me, and she also known Beast, but she's not really into Beast.

So after that, i keep on Beast-ing my self. I download many variety shows, other videos, and while watching for my 1st kpop group performance i also keep on eye on Beast performance, i started to look for Beast's forum. and i'm getting to know more about Dujun.. aww... i love him.. i love the way he dress, he like to use casual and loose t shirt, i like how he is so sloppy and he always said he treats woman like a stone..kyaaa.. that really match my imagination of his character.. >< He is so manly.. >< ><

and other members has interesting personality and skills too. i once said that their vocal quality is almost the same, and their dance skill is actually very good too, and every member can dance very well. i downloaded Soom dance practice, and wow... wow.. wow.. even YS, who i thought the weakest member in dance, can dance that difficult choreo very well.. they have a great sync in both singing and dancing as a group. and Yong Junhyung.. oh my, he can writes such a very beautiful lyrics. i searched the translation of Fiction and On Rainy Days, and the parts of

"I'm a writer that lost his purpose, I Love You, I Love You, I Love You, I Love You, I Love You, i kept on writing these 3 words"

and

"Well, it doesn't mean that i miss you, no it doesn't mean that. It just, the memories we had are a bit sharp"

are really cute.. ;_____; and deep and meaningful. Dongwoon and Gikwang personality are very cute too.. they are really babo.. super babo..hahha.. Hyunseung, hahha.. he is really jjang. beside his super great dancing and singing skill, his 4D personality is really cute too. i had a video of Idol Maid, where he took driver lisence's test and he kept on lying that he hasn't study yet.. and the PD edited the video of him saying "gojitmal,  gojitmal, gojitmal" on and on,, that is so funny, and how he rap "Tian mimi, ni xiao ni de tian mimi" on MBC show is really amuse both me and other Beast member.. kyaaa.. i like them the best. hahhaa


that was around September-November 2011. I was a loner fans of Beast, and I keep Beast, Beauty as my 2nd fandom. I want to cheer them a lot, but i kinda don't have friends..hahhaaha. that time is the time of my PPL in 78 shs. I met a student that also a kpop fans, and we like the same group, my 1st kpop group. we had a lil talk bout kpop, and we both agree that beside my 1st kpop group, Beast is a very great boyband too.

and during late November-December 2012, i get close to Alin and Aru. We had plan to travel to Singapore, so we met each other a lot. During that time, i ask them about Beast. Well, alin and aru were a pro at kpop, hahhaha.. tara and them are the ones that influenced me to these kpop things. I asked Alin whether she knew beast, she said she didn't know, and when I asked Aru, she said she knew some Beast's songs, and She said they have many great songs.. yes, i agree on that. and there's a time, they came to my house, and i showed them Beast's pictures. and their rection was like "YS is very cuteee...." I showed them Beast's performance and they said they like it. At that day, Alin made up her self that YS is her bias.lol.  And i'm happy cause i finally got beauty mates. and with them, i can express my self and share my feelings about Beast. and we are getting more and more in love with Beast. we've been through a lot. we recorded ourselves sang "on rainy days" on Marina Bay, in front of Light and Water Spectacular Show. We sang Beast songs every night on our hotel room. and we went to Beautiful Show in Indonesia.. and that night, March, 17th 2012 was one of the beast nigth in my life, and i believe it was one of the best night for alin and aru too. after the concert, they hugged me and thanked me for introducing beast to them. hahaha.. i never thanked them for introducing kpop to me..lol..

and now, i'm proud to say that Beauty is my main fandom, and I am so in love with beast, and i'm happy to know them. and i will continue supporting them, and by their side along the rest journey. :)

So, what can you get from this?

First, I'm not fall in love with Beast because of their handsome look. no, beast member isn't handsome. But each of the member have a very great skill of singing and dancing. and they can sync them very well, so every song they sing and every choreo they dance will become pretty great.

and so because of that, the 2nd is, Beast really sell their song, they work really hard on every song, and that resulted many people, even the one that already got a main fandom, start to like them. and their album "Fiction and Fact" i read lots of comments from non beauty people (i read many in Youtube channels that do song parody) that said "This album is the only album which i like ALL the songs in it". NADO !!!

i've listened to Westlife, A1, Backstreet boys,etc. and  i had their album, but, yes, there are some songs that really bored me, and im always skip that song everytime i play the album. for example, i don't really like the song "I cry" and "Bob BOb Baby" from Westlife's World of Our Own album. I don't like "The Things We Never Did" song from A1's The A List album.  but, Fiction and Fact is different. there are always some parts that are so catchy, so that i don't want to miss it. I cried at the 1st time i heard and watched You performance. that was really cute. I like DJ and JH parts on Freeze. i like the part of "Don't you tell me why Don't let me down" etc etc etc.

and the 3rd, they have great personality and team work, and cube is a very great entertaiment agent. Beast sleep together, 6 of them, in the same room. so u can imagine how close they are. GK and YS were school mates, also, GK, DJ, YS, and DW once trained together in JYP. they know each other very well, and i never hear there's a fight between them. even though GK and DJ were so busy, even JH has more money cause he wrote lyrics, they still support each other, and they bring Beast name every where they go. YS even help JH to sing as the guide of the song JH's write for free, and DJ, as the leader, he really care other members and support them a lot. and they are soo close to their parents. i mean very close that until now, their parents still gathering at Cube to talk about their schedule and their parents still taking care of thier money. Even the scariest person, JH, he still daddy cute son. hhahahaa.. Son Ilrak, Dongwoon father, he really cares about Beast and Beauty a lot. He really protects us, and oh my, i never saw any father of boyband member do this. Son Ilrak appa, he knew a bad rumor of Beast, that even only spread out on internet. even alkpop didn't write it on their site, and i don't even think that Beast themselves knew the rumors. but Son Ilrak knew, and he wrote on his cyworld about this. He is defending us with his genius words.. kyaaa.. so proud of him and really thankful.. ><

Because of these reasons and facts. i really don't understand, how can Beast have haters. they are too kind and too perfect. Just an enviousness that can make people hates them. So now, I just can pray that Beast will continue progressing and Beauty will grow stronger. and me, i hope i can see them again, and i wsih for a chance to say directly to them how thankful i am for knowing them. amin.




hahhaha.. what a long post. see ya. :)

how if my husband is the next president of South Korea

hhmmmm.. Son Ilrak, dongwoon's father just update his cyworld, and this cut of his post really, really, really~~~

There one person who is a friend of mine who deserves a compliment.

It’s BEAST’s leader,
nation’s boyfriend idol,
rock-thighs 

Yoon Doojoon, who is so popular these days that even his name appears in song lyrics.

I happened to watch a video of BEAST arriving at the fan meeting location.

Watching the video, I saw Doojoon, who was leading the boys saying "We can’t be under the shade when B2UTIES are in the sun" as he was walking out of the shade.

Those were his words.
No one made him say it.
It wasn’t even a scene he had acted out before.

I am confident that was BEAST’s natural feeling they have for B2UTIES.

The moment I saw that, I felt an infinite amount of confidence in Doojoon.

Shouldn’t all leaders in the world essentially be like him?

I might be wondering off topic, but I thought how great it would be if the “great” politicians of our country resembled Doojoon. Even at least 25%.

yes, that is my Yoon Doojoon, the  stupid dorky man that i've always talk about.

 

hhhmmm... will he ever run for South Korea president someday? if i happen to be his wife, how will i manage it?? 키키키키키키~~~

Thanks to

so, im actually got nothing to do right now. still can not believe most of the process is done. and ah, feel like i was in the dreamland. hehhehe :D

and well, i finally made it to these part, the part where i have to write "Lembar Persembahan". kkkk.. :p i'm kinda waiting for it. most of my friends already made it before sidang. but, me, i wait till sidang officially finished..hahhahaha~

what i write there? i used lots of lyrics from beast's songs. thanks to, lights go on again, you, and oasis. then i write names of important people in my life.. im actually a bit confuse how to start writing it, but, well, i need to finished it, so, i'll just write whatever i want.. hahaha.. 

well, thank you everyone~~ :D

ROK HITAM

so, today is Monday, July, 23rd, 2012..


Just like Irma said "today will be the unforgettable day in my life"

or as BTOB-Changsub said, today is kinda "미친 짓이었지만 하지만 뭐라도 아찔한 짜릿한" (It was a crazy thing to do but no matter what, it was breathtaking and electrifying)

and im basically HAPPY... never know this day will come to me.. never know i'd be able to passed this day..  and, the "ROK HITAM" hmm...

well, pay attention to these pictures, and find the similar thing from them..

yes. the "Rok Hitam" i wore during highschool graduation still accompanied me till today, July, 23rd, 2012.

HAPPY MONDAY EVERYONE ^^

Midnight

okie dokie, so this is the lyrics of B2st-Midnight. greatly compose by jjang tiger, jjang yongjun, and jjang kyusung... hhehhee.. yes, they are really JJANG !! :p

MIDNIGHT (korean romanization)

[DW] geudaeneun eotteongayo gakkeum-eun nareul saenggakhan jeok ittnayo
I gin bam-e dashi nuneul gamgo
geudael saenggakhago jamdeulji mothago geuraeyo

[JS] jogeum yunanhi gineyo geudae eobtneun bam-i
aswiweojineyo geuddae bonaen geu nal-i deo

[DJ] gyesok mudyeojigettjo jeomjeom ijhyeojigettjo

[DW] eonjenganeun geudaega

[GK] jam-i oji anhneun bam so sad tonight
geudae wa hamkke halsu eobtneun i bam
in the midnight a a a midnight
ni saenggak-e jam mot deun Midnight

[YS] dashi chaja on i bam so sad tonight
geudaega eobshi dashi matneun i bam
in the midnight a a a midnight a
niga eobshi jam mot deun Midnight

[JH] nun gamattda ddeuneun saiboda deo bbareuge nal chajawattda
ddeonaga beorin sarang dangshin you can’t do this to me
chung bunhada chungbunhae geuman jom haera nal apeuge
naege milyeoniran ireum-e bameun kkeutnaji anha

[JS] da jinan yaegi dashi hago shipjin anhjiman
naega geudael manhi choha hagin haettna bwayo

[DJ] gyesok saenggaknagettjo deo geuriwojigettjo

[DW] shigan-I jinalsurok

*back to [GK] and [YS] part

[JH] jeogi banjjak i neun Little star nal wiro haejura
gidael got hana eobshi sseurojineun oneul bam
jeogi banjjak i neun Little star nal wiro haejura
gidael got hana eobshi sseurojineun

[DJ] byeol hyeneun bam gyejeol-i jina jogeumsshik dalla Jeoganeun i bam
hajiman nan yeojeonhi nan jam mot ireun bam

*back to [YS] part

MIDNIGHT (Eng)

How are you? Do you think of me from time to time?
In this long night, I close my eyes again
I think of you, I can't sleep, this is how I'm doing

The night is especially longer tonight, this night without you
I'm regretting that day I let you go
Continuously muted and slowly forgotten
That is how you will be one day

**This night I can't fall asleep in So sad tonight
This night I can't spend with you
In the midnight a a a midnight
This Midnight I can't sleep from my thoughts of you

***This night that found me again So sad tonight
This night I greet again without you
In the midnight a a a midnight a
This midnight I can't fall asleep without you

You found me faster than the time I take to blink
The love that left me, dear you can’t do this to me
Enough, it's enough, stop hurting me
This night I call pathetic never seems to end

Even though I don't want to bring up past stories
But I must have really liked you
Continuously remembered and slowly yearning
As more time elapses

back to **, ***

That little star twinkling above, comfort me
Tonight is the night where everything collapses with no where else to rest
That little star twinkling above, comfort me
Collapsing without anywhere to rest

The night I count the stars, the night that slowly transforms because of the changing seasons
However, this night is still the night I still can't seem to fall asleep in sleep

back to ***

cr: b2strising team, edited by me

the night i count the stars~~

I'M HAPPY !!!!
my dearest B2ST just release their new track for the new 5th mini album !!! (>.<) <3 <3~~

July, 14th, 2pm, they release a teaser video.. and i was like TT_TT finally~~~ been missing them since march, 17th, and now they back!! TT_TT
during the photo teaser, and snap shoot, they look really thin, but they look a bit chubby in the teaser.. i don't know how cube did that..hahha..lol.. but i do love chubby beast !! hahaha.. <3

uri lee kiki.. no matter how hard u try to look like a bad boy, you still naui baby cutey boy~~ <3

 the old maknae, son donwoon.. he looks mature, and western.. no matter what, he still a cute guy who insist of doing aegyo even if he knew he fail in that.. lol.. <3

 uri JJANG hyunseung !!! this boy is really pretty.. his sleek red hair, and pinkeu jacket fits his white skin perfectly.... my stubborn boy, hope u stay the samee~~ <3

 my special guy, yoon leader !!! been worried bout him a lot, pray for him 5+1 times a day and he showed up with tired face, skinny body..im happy but TT_TT~~ but, he also showed me that he still the dorky derpy boy that i love.. thank you~~ <3

 

 yang yo!! the cutest chicken on earth.. i worried that his face will sulk and looks thin, but noo.. he still chubby, and his nose still big and short (baca: pesek) hahaha.. <3

  

yong junmyon~~ i actually wants him back to the cute image during xing..hahaha.. but glad, he still cute, though how hard he try to look cool.. <3

and~~~ July, 15th, 00.00am, they release "Midnight" track...the song is really great.. they sang every part perfectly... and "geu namja" have a solo part like in fiction intro... and i cried when i heard that... been missing him a lot.. TT_TT cry for happiness~~ TT_TT
im gonna post the lyrics of Midnight later...im just happy now, and keep replaying the song... huaaa.. huaaa... TT_TT

 BEAST-Midnight JJANG !!! Beast wa Beauty Yongwonhi Hamke !!! <3

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Neoegero
ijen doragal gireun eobtjiman....
jigeum haengbokhan neoreul bomyeo
nan geuraedo useobolge :-)

To you, Now there is no path for me to return
But looking at your happy face, I will still try to smile :-)

B2ST-On Rainy Days

HAPPY 1000th DAY !!!!!

비스트 & 뷰티 forever !!!

  

onjena naneun usseulsu isseo~~

hiii~~~

i'm gonna share a very cute and beautiful song from A Pink. They are a rookie girlband from Cube Entertaiment..yess !!! after Beast, Btob, A pink is my new loooovveee~~~ I'm officially Cube Line.. hahhaa.. :p

well, i'm not actually a girlband stanner.. the only girlband i used to like is Atomic Kitten, i don't have particular reason why i like them..hmm.. probably it's because their former member, Kerry Katona used to married Bryan McFaddens, former member of Westlife, which is my FIRST ever bias..lol..  Atomic Kitten has many GREAT songs.. i like Whole Again, Cradle, Love Doesn't Have To Hurt, The Last Goodbye. though i still don't understand the meaning of their songs: See Ya, The Tide Is High, and Right Now -,-'

and now, this rookie girls, that already got lots of award, are catching my heart.. >< their songs are really cute,, beautiful,, and just awww... straight to my heart..lol.. Most of girlband song is about acting cute in front of boy, or how they don't want to make relationship, or there's someone who secretly by her, or the feeling of accepting love from a man, girlspower, etc, etc.. but.. but.. but..  A Pink's songs are really different !! most of their songs are talk about, how they fall in love to a guy, they really like him, that they thinking of him everyhour,etc,etc..but they really don't know what to do, they can only adore the guy from afar, pray that someday he know, and he doesn't even seem to know.. hahhaha...  alin and i even calling A Pink is the female version of Beast (Beast also have this kind of song).

Most of beast's songs tells how they become a secret admirer to a girl.. well, many boyband sings this kind of song, but Beast lyrics are the sweetest.. and a pink's songs tells the almost same story, but only the secret admirer is a girl... girlband rarely sing this kind of song.. and just like beast songs that really fits and express me the best. A pink songs also do the same, and they are sang by girls, which is make the feeling more real.. ><

Well, this is my Number 1 Favorite.. I dedicate this song for Yoon DuJun of B2st.. <3

STEP (A Pink)

1, 2 step, step, step 1, 2 step, step, step

Nuni bushin haessa-re
Kwaehnhi nae mami jakku dugeundugeunkeoryeo

Harue yeol beon ani seumubeon jakkuman saengganna
Ireon naye mameul neon aneunji

Neul nae son jabajugi geojinmarhaji anhgi
Mae-il naman parabogo sarang-haejugi

Tto hal ma-reun manh-jiman
Neo-ye-ge ha-go shipeot-deon mal neol sarang-hae

*You neoye soneul kkok jab-go bal-keo-reumeul majchumyeo
Du-ri hamkke 1, 2 step
Baby listen to my heart
Seoro majubomyeonseo konnoraereul bureumyeo
Neowah hamkke 1, 2 step my baby baby my 1, 2 step

**1, 2 step 1,2 step 1, 2 step
1, 2 step eh eh eh eh eh eh
1, 2 step eh eh eh eh eh eh
1, 2 step 1,2 step

Neoye useumi chowa bogo tto bwahdo
Jakku ni-ga bogo shipeo

Haruga neomu chalbeun geot kata
Neowahye shi-ganeun jakku ppalli ganeunji nan molla

Neon mworha-go isseul-kka? nae saenggakhagin hal-kka?
Neomu bogo shipeun mame nun-mul naneunkeol

Keuraedo ni-ga chowa
Neul eonjena nareul utke haejuneun neonikka

(Back To *)

Neul chigeumcheoreom du-riseo gateun kkumeul kkumyeonseo
Uri hamkke 1, 2 step
Baby listen to my heart
Neoye yeop-jarieseo tteo-reojiji anheu-llae
Neoreul neomu sarang-hae my baby baby my 1, 2 step

(Back To **)


the glowing words are my favorite parts.. there are times that i really want to tell those words to that man... the meaning of those words are:

Ten times, no twenty times a day, I keep thinking of you~~
I wonder if you know how I feel~~

There’s more I want to say but this is what I want to tell you~~
>I love you<

I like your smile, I look and look but I keep missing you~~

What are you doing? Do you even think of me?
I miss you so much that tears fall~~ TT_TT

I even made a video for "geu saram" bday with this song... and the video hits the best in my youtube channel..It has the most like, and the most comments.. ><

here is it: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0RBSLj6Wz24&feature=plcp


Huaa~~~ Cube Entertaiment, they really make my life unyu-unyu, super unyu, in a cute way... and i'm happy^^

oh, the tittle "onjena naneun usseulsu isseo" means "that never fail to make me smile".. taken from super junior-angel.. that phrase really suits naui "geu saram" and Cube entertaiment... ><

BTOB

hi.. hi... hi...

so, im gonna share a story of my BTOB day.. hmm.. BTOB is a rookie boyband, from Cube Entertaiment, so they're actually B2ST younger brother. BTOB consist of 7 member, Eunkwang, Minhyuk, Hyunsik, Ilhoon, Changseob, Peniel, and Sungjae. If i should choose a bias, i'll choose minhyuk and ilhoon. minhyuk is so cute, he looks like mini dongwoon, though he is actually older than dongwoon. oh, all of them are younger than me. the oldest member, eunkwang, he was born on september 19990, while i was born on august 1990...

on june, 21st, they came to Indonesia to held a mini showcase. when i heard the news, i was like woww... it's BTOB.. and they're rookie, we'd have a chance to see them closer, even an interaction. cause, i read news about BTOB live in Singapore, and they had a fansigning..aaawww.. and to get to the fansigning we only need to buy their CD..wooowww.. alin also a lot excited about it... we would surely going if the ticket cost less than IDR 500000.. but, then the showcase is free, yes free, ONLY for indovision subscriber. we should join a quiz and the winner will be drawn.. well, neither me or alin subscribe to Indovision, so we ask our friends if we could borrow their subscribtion ID.. and yes, we got one.. we expect to win this, cause we sure that not many people know BTOB and know this event.. but, we didnt win..huaaa.. we lost our chance to see them.. :(

but, we're not giving up.. we knew that they'll stay in jakarta for 3 days to do promotion, and it's indovision, so there's a chance that BTOB will do a promotion in RCTI, just like Hangeng did... well, my uncle is a manager at RCTI, so i contacted him whether there'll be BTOB in one of RCTI show... and yes.. yes.. yes.. yes... BTOB'll do promotion in Dahsyat.... well, i asked my uncle if i can come to Dahsyat, he said he can help, but his son, my cousin, was sick. and he needed to search for hospital.. im a bit pesimistic. i told alin the good and bad news.. and we choose to still go to Dahsyat with or without my uncle..

on june 22nd, we went to RCTI.. we arrived there at 5.30 am. my father drop us there.. and we met other melodies (BTOB fans, just like B2UTY for B2ST) there.. i still texted my uncle whether he could help us to get to Dahsyat,, but i don't expect a lot, cause i knew he must be busy. but, at 7.30 my uncle text me that he could help. he called his friend, and his friend'll be helping us to get to Dahsyat.. so yes, we can enter Dahsyat before other melodies.. the other need to wait in line but we can straight go to the studio. we're a bit confuse cause my uncle's friend leave us. we asked to sit alongside with the "alay"..huaa... im about to cry at that time.. huhuu :(

just before the shooting starts, we run to the bacstage... the security and the producer told us to stand on the audience side, and they kinda angry at us, so we follow them, and luckily my uncle came just before BTOB enter the studio.. he took us from the audience side, and we stand near the cameramen, near the entry door, yes the door where BTOB'll come from.. ><

and like 10 minutes later, BTOB came to rehearsal. they walk to us.. and we we're soo close... it's like only 50 cm away... and i confuse what to say, and i just scream "minhyuk" and he looked at me and smile, and then changseob came, he stand just right in front of us. and alin and i bowed to him, and said annyeong.. and he bowed back..ohhh....  they're so friendly.. ><

during the rehearsal, alin and i stand on the right side of the stage,, minhyuk, sungjae, come to us often.. there's time when minhyuk come so close to us.. we called him and he smile and wave to us.. yes only us.. cause there's no other melodies near us, so yes,, we made eye contact... kkkkk.... :p sungjae is so cute, he smile, and he looks really playful... and ilhoon.. oh my.. he is really really cute... when i saw him on video or photos, he looks so cool, but he is actually really cutee.... ><

BTOB do interview and sing Insane. during that time, we only saw them from the cameramen side.. because we didn't want to be shoot on TV.. kkk :p and after they finished performing, we waited for them, near the exit door, and om my... they are sooo handsome..very handsome..sungjae come first and eunkwang the last. im a bit confuse how to call them, because i still can't remember they face, i want to call ilhoon, but i dont know where is he.. i just confuse.. so i scream "oppa" and sungjae turned his head and look at me, and smile... kya kya kya... >< he is so cute... ><  and lol, i hope he didn't know that im older than him (sungjae is the maknae, lol). and then changseob came, we said "changseob daebak", he look at us, smile and bowed... then, we call minhyuk, and he (again) smile and wave to us, and the last eunkwang, i said "eunkwang daebak" and he look at me, smile and waving.. huaaa... im happy... >< eunkwang is a lot more handsome in real.. ><

and after that, we straingt exit the studio, cause i need to go to hospital and see my cousins.. he need help to do his exam.. lol.. but, outside the studio, there's a bus and a lot of melodies stand near it. oh it's BTOB's bus. because, i need to catch up with time, alin and i didn't wait for BTOB.. we go straight outside RCTI.. and guess what.. their bus pass in front of us.. i saw minhyuk sit near the window, behind him is sungjae, and they (again) wave and smile to us.. huaaa... how i really wish they remember us.. sungjae, minhyuk, changseob, and eunkwang.. we made lots of eye contact... huaaaaa.... >< thank u BTOB..

here are photos, i took on Dahsyat:

내 여자친구를 부탁해 (Say No)

this is the cute -est, sweetest, beast's lyrics ever. i know and sing this song for a long time, but just realize the meaning of it. and it melts me~~~ kyaaa... >< you should read this, be melt, and dont blame me for that.

 

Today my friend asked me if he could date you
Since I had broken up with you, he said he’d cherish you in my place

“THAT THAT THAT THAT THAT’S OKAY
GET GET GET GET AWAY
It’s okay, it’s not like we have anything to do with each other anymore
Stop saying sorry, my heart doesn’t hurt
Please be a good boyfriend to her in place of me”

I can’t get myself to say that I still can’t sleep at night because of her
With a forced smile I encouraged him and sent him away OH GIRL

Oh can’t you see? I’m still lovin’ you
My heart still can’t seem to let you go

Say no! no! no! no! no! Say no! no! no! no! no!
Tell him no, tell him your heart is still waiting for me SAY NO!

“She can’t drink a lot and she doesn’t like smoke
She hates being alone so always be with her”

Always celebrate her birthday and anniversaries”
I don’t know why I’m telling him this

I know I’m going to turn around and regret this but I still acted cool
I know I’m going to be upset behind my friend’s back and beg him not to

Oh can’t you see? I’m still lovin’ you
My heart still can’t seem to let you go

Say no! no! no! no! no! Say no! no! no! no! no!
Tell him no, tell him your heart is still waiting for me SAY NO!

(Say) no no no (Say) you can’t
(Say) you will wait for me
(Say) no no no (Say) you can’t
(Say) you will wait for me

I can’t get myself to say that I still can’t sleep at night because of her
With a forced smile I encouraged him and sent him away OH GIRL

Oh can’t you see? I’m still lovin’ you
My heart still can’t seem to let you go

Say no! no! no! no! no! Say no! no! no! no! no!
Tell him no, tell him your heart is still waiting for me SAY NO!

credits:aoiare

my favourite part is "술은 많이 못해 담배 연기는 싫어해, 혼자 있는 거 싫어하니까 언제나 함께" which is my baby boy, DOOJOON's part. “She can’t drink a lot and she doesn’t like smoke. She hates being alone so always be with her”. how can that man be this cute~~ #diealilbitwhenhesingthis

picture from this

have you ever

falling in love with six persons at the same time?


 I HAVE. 

these 6 boys, they made me fallen. ><

내겐 너무 소중해

again and again

Yong Junhyung.

yes, it's always about him...

that boy~~~

i just re-read these translation of beast's song.. yes, re-read.. i've been reading these a lot.. a lot.. that now, i think i should put these on this blog..

yes, you guys, should read this, and be melted.. and dont blame me for that... :p

" I was the silent one who said that I was never going to have a one-sided love in my life. That I was going to meet someone who loves me, But you are the girl that who broke all of that, how sad is this. I leave a message on your phone using the emoticons that I thought were so corny , You are the first girl who changed me this much "
(Beast-You)

"I’m the writer who lost his purpose .The end of this novel, how am I supposed to write it (My own Fiction).

 I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I keep writing these 3 words. 

Setting the warn out pen on the old paper stained in tears. This story can’t be happy or sad"
(Beast-Fiction)

"Well this doesn’t mean that I miss you, no it doesn’t mean that.

It just means that the time we had together was a bit sharp. 

When it’s the type of day that you really liked, 

I keep opening the raw memories of you, 

Making the excuse that it’s all memories..... " 

(Beast-On Rainy Days)

those lyrics are written and sang by:

tinki-winki, dipsy, lala, pooooo~~ (part 2)

okay, so i've done writing 3 things, and what else??

4. Beautiful Show Indonesia (March 17th, 2012)
kyaaaaa.....>< this thing, is the thing that i never expect to be happen to me..

well, the ticket selling starts on february 14th (if im not mistaken), yes, that is 5 days before i went to singapore..and i've count my money, n i kinda give up on that.. my money is just enough for the sg trip.

and at that time, im the one that like beast a lot. i mean tara, kinan doesn't like beast as much as i do, alin n aru havent 100% infected to my beast virus. and so, im the one who feell galau a lot. im kinda crazy when i saw my timeline full of beautiful show's ticket selling. i even curse the promoter, the "M", the one that brought westlife too, and make the concert in chaos.

you can asked jenny,irma,tara how galau i am... everytime i saw them, or chat them on fb,i was like "huhuhu,, what to do.. huuuu..." jenny always said "calm down, just pray that the ticket still avaible after u comeback from sg" but in my mind even though the ticket still avaible, i dont think i'll be able to watch that. i mean, hello i dont have any money tree, n my parents wont even allow me to do that crazy things.. two concert in a row... it's like every months im going to see a concert..

and then i got a text from alin. and she was said that she also heard about beautiful show, n guess what SHE ALSO FEEL GALAU.. lol.. lol.. and i feel happy... cause finally i have galau friend..lol.. ><

on the ticket sales day, we talked via telephone about this, and we decide to stay calm n wait. we'll buy the ticket after singapore, n we even contact a calo, to asked whether he can provide a ticket after feb 19th.lol..

and during sg, we always said "inget yoseob" if we want to buy sth..hhahaha...we still think about that beautiful show's galau... and well, the beast virus is spread and infected alin n aru a lot in singapore. everynight before sleep,we sing beast's song, and we recorded and sang "on rainy days" on marina bay, in front of light n water spectacular show. if i think about it again, this sounds a bit weird. i mean, im going to see ss4, but i always sing beast song.. lol.. aru even told me not to mistakenly sang any beast's song on ss4..lol.. and fiuh.. i manage not to, though i really want to sing "on rainy days" during ss4 goodbye..lol..

and aru is the one who is not suffering from that galau.. she always said, "what is it so good from a concert. u'll be just watching them singing,that's it.. and i believe if i saw one i'll be just calm down, do nothing, say nothing" but~~~ wait what happen to her next..lol..

and after singapore, i didnt see n contact aru n alin for like a week.. alin was hospitalized due to her sloppiness eat (drink) too much slurpee on sg..lol.. and after that, i saw aru on campus's mosque. and i was laughing hard at her.. idk, but i find it soooo funny..really.. and strange.. i mean we talk a lot during that preparation n sg trip, n suddenly we lost contact for about a week, n suddenly we met at the mosque..hahaha.. and at that time, i asked her "aruuu... beautiful show.. ottokae?" and she surprisely said " yukk.. kaja...let's go".. and i was like"huh?????" she's the one who said not to waste money on a concert, n suddenly she said let's go.. kkkkkk.. :p again burst my laugh.. lol..lol..

we choose to wait till early march to buy the ticket. i need to wait for my february salary too..lol.. n finally, a week before beautiful show, we went to rajakarcis n bought the ticket.. we bought the festival.. and we also prepare lots of project for the boys...

first, we made hand banner.. i made one for dujun, alin yoseob, n aru gikwang..then, we made videos, a thank you n tribute video for beast.. and for that video, we finally made hand banners for all member..lol.. we record a video on a karaoke, and it turns out good.. really !!! >< i upload it on youtube n we asked everyone to watch it.. but lately there's someone who press the unlike button.. :(

continue bout the beautiful show story, a day befor the show, we visited jitec, mangga dua.. we never went there, so we do a survey.. there's no specific security at that time, so we able to go to in front of the concert hall..lol.. we saw the venue, the stage before another audience saw it..lol.. there's only workers there.. and 3 of us walked around there confidently.. there's someone who's strangely looking at us, but we really dont care..kkk :p  i wanted to took some pics, but i dont have the courage..lol.. i still have that coward feel..lol..

the promoter also said that there'll be gift corner, so we can send our gift for beast.. and we choose to give them that tribute cd, and 3 pieces of Indomie..kkkk.. :p we want to give them Indomie rendang, but, we couldn't find any on the alfamart or any minimarket near my house, so we bought them "Indomie jumbo rasa ayam panggang" kkk.. :p

alin n aru stayed at my house on the night before the concert.. we want to wait for beast on the airport, but our project havent finished yet..so we just wait for the info via twitter.. gikwang the 1st one who arrive n tweet "hello jakarta" awww.. i was sooo happy... n around 11pm, all of them arrived on soetta... the "M" promoter always do this.. they always asked the artist to arrive midnight, so only a few fans that wait on the airport...

what i heard about their arrival is "gikwang paboly left his laptop on the plane" lol.. that brat is really~ huh... >< then "promoter provide them with a special exit on the airport, so they dont have to worry about the fans chaos, but beast said they want to exit on the normal gate n greet all their fans" OMOOOO...... I LOVE BEAST !!!!! I AM B2UTY FOREVER !!! <3 <3 <3


we arrived at jitec around 8am.. we sit in line on the 3rd floor and wait to be transfered to the 8th floor.. we made it in the front line, but later someone in front of us put in like 10 people on their line...i was like eww.... n the security didnt do anything !! >< that is one of the bad things in indonesia people.. NO DISCIPLINE !! and on 4pm, we started to move to the 8th floor. a bit chaos, but nothing serious.. i know the reputacy of the "M".. they did a bad job on westlife and 2 pm.. but im glad they make progress on beautiful show.. they devide the festival into 2 pen (during 2pm, they didnt do that, so one pen is more crowded than another), they separate the line into 2 types (the separation start after we move to the 5th floor, though it'll be good if the separation start from the 3rd floor).

we entered the venue on 6.30 pm. but, the line to enter the venue is CHAOS.. i mean, we made an "snake like" lining, but, the one whose at the back lining, but near to the gate "nyelak". so they entered first, and my friends n i are on the front line, but the farest from the gate.. so we really left behind :(

and on the venue alin n aru choose to stand near the side stage, n i stand in the corner of the main stage n the catwalk. well, my spot is actually the best n worst spot.. i mean it's near the main stage n catwalk, the place where the member always pass by, but that also the place where u can feel the biggest pressure from everyone behind you... and that's hurt..really... =,=

beast's songs were played during that one n half hour waiting, i was sing along with it, and all the audience did too.. so, i already lost my voice before the concert begin... on 8pm, the concert begin, the music start, i start to record using my camdig, and also the pressure start to getting worst..lol.. during special-shock-breathe, time passed by so fast.. and my festival is a bit chaos.. im afraid that beast'll angry just like westlife, but the words that came from them is "wow, indonesian b2uty is so energetic" lol.... ><

and how was the concert???  AWESOME !!!!! the BEST concert i ever attend.. their fan service is kinda 1000000 %.. >< i loooveee them, 2,5 hours never been enough !!!! and i sing along with them, with my left voice....><  yes, i know all their song !!! even the rap part !! >< during on rainy days, i was like, "omooo.. finally, sing on rainy days with beast is always been my dream" n it did come true... huaaa..... still cant believe that... >< i really want to cry, but there no tears come out from my eyes, there's only happiness, lots of it, on that night !!! ><

my baby boy,  Yoon Du Jun always come to my side, he smile a lot... huaaaa... i want to see him again,.... he was soooo handsome.. 

and Son Dong Woon, the old maknae, he is really really a namshin... he is SUPER DUPER HANDSOME.... he was like a prince, an angel.... he is more handsome than the prince choi siwon. yes i said that with my own mouth !!!!! 

Yang Yoseob, and Lee Kikwang is so cute, really... 

and Yong Junhyung.his smilee..aw aw aw... he is 100% SEXY.... kkkk :p 

and the 4d prince, Jang Hyunseung, he is also more handsome in real !!!.. they are all just PERFECT !!!

kiki's mike had a little trouble during easy, but there's no big deal on it, n juhyung drop his mic after his solo, n everyone shout "gwenchana..gwenchana" kkk.. :p and i feel the beautiful creep on my back hair during fiction.. the fanchant is soooo DAEBAK !!! " yoon dujun, jang hyunseung, yong junhyung, yang yoseob, lee gikwang, son dongwoon, so beast !" aww...... >< huaaa.. still can remember every single moment of that.. super happy !!! ><

i was like only less then 2 m away from dujun, dongwoon... dujun,dongwoon,kiki, and hyunseung stayed a lot near me... but junhyung n yoseob only pass by... >< huaaa.. i want beautiful show again... really... ><

after the concert, we waited for a taxi, and during that way back to my home, we cant stop talk about the concert..kkk.. :p alin n aru thanked me cause i've introduce beast to them..lol.. ><

huaaa.. still cant believe that night ever happen to me.. i mean, i almost didnt attend the concert, i was once saying "i'll skip this, i only knew them for like 6 months" (oh well, but during that time, i've known them a lot,lol)... huaa.. and i never regret how much money i spent on it, it was worthed !!! ><

and now, what happened to aru after the concert.. she said " the concert was amazing, and I WANT TO ATTEND THE NEXT BEAUTIFUL SHOW" lol.. she is 100% in love with beast, and she is 100% addicted to beast's concert..lol.. alin even said aru scream and yell during the concert..wkwkwk.. lol.. she fall for it..hahhaha.. ><

and before went to sleep, i had a lil chat with aru, and WE FORGOT TO PAY ATTENTION ON JUHYUNG TATTOOS !!!! huaaaaaaa... im curious about that alot !!! >< >< i want see the tattoos in real, with my bare eyes..kyaaaa... please repeat beautiful show again !!! jebal !!!... >< ><

and right now everytime i saw photos, fancam, or read stories about beautiful show, i feel like im going to cry.. :( i miss that night, i miss them, i miss staring at their smile, i miss sing along with them.. :(

"should i hug or not" talk, kiki so smexy in that unbutton shirt

after fiction, on rainy days, the fact. 3 of my favorite songs, where my dream come true :D

hyunseung !! he is handsome, i wish he smile more..

the stage, before started

those three~~

son namshin !!! angel on th earth !!

aww.. yoseobbie... >< the only photo of him i got

dongwoonie, idk our age gap, i'll still call u oppa..lol

shock ><

the big banner of beast.. we want to took photos, but too crowded.. ><

well, the stories still.... TO BE CONTINUE ( i've told you, a lot, alot of things right?)